Saturday, 6 February 2016

A Series Of Unfortunate Events

It was a heartbreak to me when I was told to leave the coffee shop and transfer to one of the company’s sushi restaurants in Business Bay. I mean new place, new restaurant
 new menu, new people - everything. I was informed to move there a day before so it all happened so fast that I didn’t even get the chance to properly say my good byes to the staffs, regular customers and especially to the place where I fell in love with. Oh how I miss working in JBR! Anyways,  that was just the start. So the next day I arrived at work with my usual coffee shop uniform but I had to wear a jacket to cover the coffee shop name in my shirt , I am in a sushi restaurant now and knows nothing about sushi and anything Japanese! There was a shy waitress on the floor and two sushi chefs who were there. Everyone was busy so I just kind of like started to blend in and kept the flow from running. There was a couple of people dressed in suits who walked in so I composed myself and presented the menu with a proper greeting. They stopped and stared at me hideously that I dropped one menu on the table accidentally. These are probably regulars and it was the first time for them to see me working there. There was this woman who looked at me as if she wanted to shoo me away. I felt so ashamed that I could I could feel my cheeks turning red from embarrassment. I quickly ignored the feeling and went on and before I knew it, it was time to close the restaurant. It was a very bad day. i felt like I don’t belong there. Nobody seemed to be friendly- the staffs, the customers,  even passersby. Arrgh I hate the thought that I feel ignored whilst in JBR, everyone notices my presence and are all grateful towards me. I wanted to just give up.

A month later, I was able to bring connection to the staffs and everyone seemed happy but not too happy when it comes to work. You know why?Because we were salary delayed for more than 2 months and everyone is dying. I moved to Business Bay on mid December last year and by that time, we haven’t received our October salary yet. Then came November and December but we only got the October salary. You could imagine how frustrated everyone was. One superwoman from the Al Ain branch was bold enough to bring this issue to the Ministry of Labour and requested to take action into this improper treatment of employees. Baam! The company got busted and would face charges if they wouldn’t give the pending salaries of their poor employees. So everyone was happy for winning the battle. All of the staffs received their two months pending salaries but lasted probably in just a week. Half or more than half of it goes to our families back home and perhaps keep something for our savings. The rest is for the necessities and oh I forgot - for paying the amounts we borrowed from other people during the three month long of famine! I am happy and grateful to be alive, but disappointed for not losing weight!

So I spent my Christmas and New Year at this new workplace with nothing special happened or anything to consider it memorable except for the famous The Address Hotel blaze. The Burj Khalifa fireworks were astonishing while The Address Hotel was burning on the side. Thank God no serious damage has been reported or people killed in the fire. Last year’s fireworks display was better I might add.

Working in Businessbay is way too different. Too stressful. Too complicated. 

Customers come in and order food then everyone gets mad if the food wasn’t served in a few minutes. Come on people,  this is not KFC. Even the sushi you ordered are being cooked separately, then rolled and sliced. You should at least take that into consideration. It is not even a buffet! Arrgh, office workers and their business minded attitudes...

Another unfortunate thing to say? I still feel like a stranger. I missed being on the spotlight. I missed working in JBR. The worst feeling is when you get a very bad sales,  you need to be prepared to be stormed by the General Manager with his words that you get to listen every time you send the sales to him...you have to formulate a reason different from the other. That even if you work so hard to the fullest, he still wouldn’t appreciate you because you didn’t reach the daily target sales. I wouldn’t be able to get my increment if I don’t work hard to increase the sales. Can I work naked???

Just kidding....


Tuesday, 27 October 2015

Serving Doesn't Make You a B*tch

Does it?

Sometimes I get that feeling when a seriously strange looking customer stares at me as if I am a steaming  French lady in a burlesque club that is about to perform a striptease. Well, I am not saying I wear fancy sexy dresses like what you see in the videos you watch during late nights (peace!) but you know that feeling when a customer comes in and he looks at you with hungry eyes and forgets why he was at your restaurant in the first place cos you obviously took his breath away! Hahaha! Sounds like Helen of Troy is now a lowly waitress!

I have watched a lot of movies that portray waiters and waitresses who has hidden agendas with their customers - these are strangers who happen to come by the restaurant to grab lunch or perhaps have a cup of latte while waiting for a certain person to meet. I hate it when the part comes when a customer asks for something that is not in the menu (which happens in real life!) or the part when the customer complains the food was bad but he has already eaten more than half of the serving and deliberately asked for a discount, in some cases, rude customers doesn't even want to pay after careful examination of the food being served and the fault wasn't from the restaurant's side.

But you know what bugs me even more? It's when a customer comes in, a sexy waitress presents the menu, they smiled at each other and the next thing you will know is that they will be at the restaurant comfort room making love with each other! This is one common thing that I noticed in some movies. I don’t know if you have noticed that but I guess this scenes are creating a general impression that we are in some ways associated or kind of act like whores { only differences are we wear aprons and we get bigger tips} in the Food and Beverage Industry. Is it just me or many of you guys here have felt already that?

Just a couple of hours ago at work, there were three guys who dropped by the shop and sounded like drunk. Their eyes were barely open, called my name as I presented the menu.They wanted three black tea with mint and asked me how much. I told them the bill amount but the other guy laughed as he was talking with the other two in a language I didn’t understand. The guy said: “No, not the tea. You, how much?” and all three of them laughed as if I was a cheap poor thing under auction as they simultaneously took their money from their own pocket. I just smiled and still told them their total bill. “Can you come with us in our hotel? It is just around the corner. Let’s have some fun” said the guy who was wearing a black leather jacket {in this humidity!}. “No sir, I’m good. I’m still at work.” I politely answered. They were talking to each other as they put an incredible amount of sugar in their tea. They even asked me what time I get off from work and they would sit their to wait for me. I didn’t pay them any more attention as another customer came in. I don’t have time to babysit all three spoiled teenagers who seemed to have tasted alcohol for the vey first time. I shook my head as I went on with my work. How could I have served these three guys green tea with mint when they asked for black tea? Never mind, they’re gone anyways!


Just when I was walking towards home at four in the morning,  a huge car came following me down the alleyway with loud music playing in the car stereo and there were like four guys inside looking at me with amusement in their eyes.They asked for my name and mobile number, they wanted to drop me home, they wanted me to talk to them over a cup of coffee. I didn’t say any word, I just wanna lay down my bed and sleep. It’s been a long night at work. 

To all the people out there like me who waits tables, I would like to tell you that no matter how low our reputation is, no matter how small our salary is, no matter how much sh*t we need to take from our customers, I would like to congratulate you being the good guy - for being able to carry those large heavy brown trays for the entire shift,  for being calm and patient even if the customers are arguing with you, and for being able to finish one long shift without any flaws, bad service, and or flirting with hidden agendas. There was this phrase that I have read somewhere and it goes like this:



“I think people should all, in some point in their lives, experience working in a restaurant or cafe. Because it teaches you something that most people lack: the ability to stay calm and patient no matter how much sh*t you need to take in from your customers."





Saturday, 24 October 2015

Yep, still a waitress!

Hey there

Yas! you! Y-O-U!!! So how have you been? If you’re gonna ask me, well,  I’m afraid I’m gonna be using this whole post to tell you how the hell I’ve been. So how long was it three years? More or less.  Anyways, the last time I made this blog was about three years ago and I named it Angel:The Seductress blah blah blah which obviously didn’t create any sound in the social media because there was nothing so interesting to read here anyways. I decided to create this to have my own world where I make all the rules and just be my self and express my feelings and thoughts - things that even my best friend wouldn’t understand. So yes, I was a frustrated writer back then and I have posted a  lot of stories [ I dreamed of becoming a successful novelist!!!! ahemm] which never ended either I lost my interest in writing it or I just didn’t have the time to write. And now I am opening this site again cos I have been recently lonely and bored and remembered this blog and thought maybe I could try again uploading blogs with a different approach. i even renamed it “Diaries Of A Clumsy Waitress” which I originally made a story about a seriously fucked up newbie waitress and how she dealt with life in a fucked up city. [It is still available in Wattpad in case you wanna read it-- and it still ongoing!] I thought maybe I could write everything that I think is funny, worthy of reading, or anything that could help you understand the way some people like me lives, just in case you wanna know! There is nothing interesting or special but I guess if you open up your mind and heart and understand how other people feel and think, perhaps you can help me change the world. So, are we friends now? I think that is a yes! 

Welcome to my site!  {heart} {heart} {heart}

Okay so my name is Angel, everybody calls me Angel so just stick with it cos trust me, you don’t wanna know my real name! {Laughs!} I just turned 25 last month and I hated it. Who wants to grow older??? I mean,  you know, growing up means bigger responsibilities, bigger expenses, bigger mistakes [which seemed to be less serious when you were still younger] and a whole lot of things that make life harder and challenging. In other words, life gets more complicated when you get older! I have been in Dubai for almost three years now, obviously forgotten everything that made the old “me” 3 years ago. Back then, life was so easy. You don’t need to be born rich to enjoy life. My dad was a farmer and mom takes care all four of us - children while my two older sisters were here in Dubai working for our dreams to come into reality. Christmas of 2012 when my eldest sister gave me a present for the holidays- a chance to tour Dubai. Going to Dubai has never been in my wishlist, hell I would rather go to Las Vegas or Amsterdam if I got the chance, right? 



Okay, I know this looks so funny and may in some way appear to be very offending to other people but yes - that was me when I first arrived in Dubai. January 25th, 2O13. I know, I can’t even recognize myself in the photo. Admit it, we have photos - old ones that we didn’t expect that was how we really looked like back then! 


I was working in a highly respected Outsourcing company in the Philippines when I was forced to leave because my sisters were having their vacation and my evil boss didn’t grant me my request for temporary leave from work. I didn’t know my sister has already planned for my future. So there, I have finally arrived in Dubai after almost 9 hours of flight from Emirates Airlines! {YASSS!} It took me another two more hours to suck everything in. I mean, I was used to mountains, muds and stuffs like that then all o a sudden all I see was skyscrapers, people of different races, women veiled in long scary black traditional dresses, men in plain white robes yet utterly even scarier by the way they look - scary- not in a negative way, but for you who would see this in the first time, in a foreign place, in a place where you don’t know anything, it will scare the hell out of you. Culture shock as most people say. 

Fast-forwarding, this will be my third year in Dubai working as a waitress [I prefer the word waitress so please don’t argue with the gender corrections- my rules, remember?] and I couldn’t believe I have been here for so long. Everything has changed. Physically and mentally. I have met a lot of people who walk from different paths of life that I never expected to meet. I have learned a lot from them, discovered new things, found and lost {eventually} L-O-V-E, made amazing new friends and have collected beautiful memories both good and bad that I will surely cherish and remember when the time comes and I will  be sitting in a wheelchair and trying to color my now-white hair back into black or burgundy! {LMAO}



So much things have changed and I hope I would be able to tell these things with you! I’m so excited to tell you everything that I have gone through. I feel blessed and forever be grateful for amidst all the pain and hardships in life, here I am still surviving. This is me now... -the clumsy waitress!






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Sunday, 17 February 2013

The Search for the Missing Happiness

One

The expression on her face is unfathomable as the tears that flowed upon her cheeks are now drying up.   For how long Christina was sitting on that swing, she doesn't know...it's getting dark but it never occurred into her mind to get up and compose herself. This day is supposed to be one of the happiest day of her life but it turned out to be her worst. Jim left her on the amusement park hours earlier with Michelle, her bestfriend. On the day of their anniversary as sweethearts, Christina's mind was full of assumption that her boyfriend would propose to finally marry her but instead, he dumped her and ran away with her long-time best friend Michelle. The Jim-faced cookies she prepared all night were all scattered on the ground and the gift she was supposed to hand to Jim laid helplessly near the trash bin. Christina could hear her heart slowly beating from beneath her chest and again tears cascaded from her messed up little brown eyes. People are passing by but she didn't care whatever they would think of her. The love that she had cared the most suddenly was taken away from her that in all woman in the world, was her bestfriend. It was ironic to think that Michelle betrayed her despite their friendship.She was so unaware of Jim's infidelity.It crashed her...
But she was never giving up. The long hours of sobbing made her feelings a bit better. Darkness overshadowed her sadness as the city lights seemed to lighten her up. "This is not the end of the world, Christina. You'll be fine..." she whispered to herself as she got up and threw the white roses that Jim gave her. A young dirty boy passed by and started picking the cookies from the ground, wholeheartedly, he shoved them into his pocket. "Do you mind?" the young boy asked Christina. "Oh, you can take all of them. Look, I have a gift for you..." she handed him the blue-colored box. The boy jumped with joy."Thank you much! Can I give this to my dad? Today is his birthday!" he exclaimed. "Well, that gift would perfectly suit your daddy!" Christina smiled to the young beggar. He ran away waving the gift on the air as if he earned it from a very hard work. The boy forgot to bid goodbye perhaps he was so excited to bring home the gift and the cookies to share it with his daddy. She wondered they are living, it must be under one of the bridges around the city. Christina sighed...well at least her efforts was all worth it even if the happiness brought by these simple gift didn't fall for who they're supposed to be given to. That smile was authentic...


 Dalton Street is filled with different people walking from different paths of life. It is late in the evening but the street is still busy as it has been all day. People from work going home, people who are hurrying for their night shift works, and people who are bored and came out to look for something to do to amuse themselves. Christina is walking like dead with a blank expression in her face. Her mobile phone gave out a loud ring and when she checked who is calling, it is her boss Henry. "Where are the files I asked you to pick?" Henry's voice was deafening. She closed her eyes in disbelief. She forgot to fetch a very important document that her boss is looking. Henry was in a deep rage and madness. "Alright, that's it Christina. I've had had enough of you. You've been acting different these days! You keep on forgetting your works and I was so patient on you. I need you to vacate your desk tomorrow. You're fired..." and the line ended. Christina heard all the words her boss said. It was like a warning to her to get back to reality but she ignored it. For how long she was standing in the middle of the street,she doesn't know. A car's screech made her mind conscious. "Hey! Are you attempting suicide? Not on my car!" the driver shouted and sped up...

Christina laid her back on her small bed, her head still empty. The telephone rang, "hello?"
her voice so weak. "Chrissy! How are you? How's your date?" "Not now, Viola. I'm tired." she answered. "Are you okay?" Viola on the other line. "Yeah.I just need some rest. I'll call you tomorrow okay?" she didn't wait for her friend Viola to answer, she dropped the phone. It has been a disastrous day. Her boyfriend Jim surprisingly dumped her on the day of their first year anniversary, her best friend Michelle stole her boyfriend and minutes later, she lost her job. Holding her mobile phone, she dialed her mom's number. A couple of rings passed, her mom answered. "Mom?" "Yes sweetheart? I'm sleeping now. I am so tired..what  is it?" Christina paused for a while. She was hesitant, with a deep sigh "Nothing. I just wanted to check you out if you are okay..." "I'm fine darling..now go to sleep too. It's already late..."
She took off her new purple dress she wore for the especial day, grabbed her bathrobe and opened the fridge. A couple of beers are arranged tidily on one shelf of the fridge. She thought tonight is the perfect night to empty the bottles she bought a month ago. She opened one bottle and hurried to the balcony. It was a silent night as people are already sleeping. While she was indulging herself gulping the beer, she made herself think of what should she do to start a new life. She emptied the bottle and opened another one. After a long pause, she cleared her throat: "I think Dubai is a nice place..."

Sunday, 5 August 2012

Russian Roulette (One)



Russian Roulette
My name is Emerald, a woman with a strong personality and will. I am a woman with big dreams in life and hope to reach it someday. I live in a suburban place in the town of Gloomsville were terror has struck the whole town since time immemorial. I work as bar tender slash dishwasher slash waitress at Burke’s, s small disco bar and restaurant eight kilometres away from my apartment. Burke’s serves breakfast and lunch and turns into a disco bar at night, haven for Gloomsville people’s night life for relaxing from a day’s hard work. I live by my own and renting a one- bedroom apartment at an old five floor apartment building owned and managed by George Laggen, a hopeless old man. I spend most of my entire time working at Burke’s and got no time for others; my room is so untidy, dishes left unwashed on the counter, cabinet opened and clothes hanged everywhere. I let out a heavy deep breath and threw my bag on the table, fixed my blanket that I left unfolded when I left for work this morning and rested my back on the bed, dust came out of the mattress.  This is hopeless; no one would ever want to live in this shit hole. I reached up the telephone and dialled the number. A couple of more rings and finally, my boss answered the telephone. “Forgot something?” Rupert’s voice is on the other line. “Yeah, hi Rupert! I’m just wondering maybe you could give me a rest tomorrow. This house definitely needs a make-over.” I tried to sound friendly and pleasing. Rupert paused for a moment then answered “Well, I’ve seen you worked hard this week but I’m afraid all of you guys have a full schedule until next week.” “Come one Rupert! I had the highest tips received this night” “Alright, Emerald. Let me see what I can do, hold on one second…” a moment later, Rupert Burke came back and delivered me a nice answer. “Jonny agreed to cover your shift tomorrow but be sure to be back tomorrow night. Okay?” “Yes! Thanks boss! You’re the best!” I squealed. “I know, gotta go dear, X is coming in a minute. Need a make-over too!” “Okay. Good luck with X!” I answered Rupert and the line was dead.
                Rupert Burke owns the bar and restaurant where I am working. He is a good boss and a close friend with all the other workers. We are like family. My boss is currently dating a handsome masculine guy he loves to call X. But his real name is Brixton Ames and he’s 29 or 30 years old. Rupert is 49 and is so in love with this guy, he’s been hooking up with him for over a year now. My gay boss is unaware that X is just digging up his money but who knows, maybe he learnt to love Rupert all the way. I threw the telephone at my side and closed my eyes,  for how long I stayed lying on my bed with my eyes closed I don’t know.  I just noticed it’s already five quarter in the morning. My hips still hurt but I have to get up because I have a long day to work up my room. With my eyes half opened, I opened the fridge and found it empty, perfect!
                Gloomsville streets are so busy at this early time of the day. People dressed up in suits are hurrying to get a ride to taxi cabs looking so problematic. Some people are already on the streets doing stuffs that I don’t seem to understand. Old couples go out for a walk with their dogs. I see people with extreme amount of fats in their bodies trying to lose some weight off their butts – a usual Thursday morning at Gloomsville. I sat down on a comfortable chair in front of the Black Garden’s CafĂ© and sipped my favourite cappuccino while looking at the people passing by the street. I just had an early grocery at a nearby grocery store and decided to have breakfast at Black Garden’s. A dirty old man appeared in front of me while I was reading the newspaper. “Got a spare for me?” his voice was so cold and seemed he hadn’t eaten for days.  “Here, take some of my cookies and go away...” “T-thanks. God bless you!” the man bowed his head and hurried away munching my cookies. The number of beggars in town is extremely increasing these days; an old abandoned building at the end of Kelvin Street is full of them like canned sardines. I wonder why these people don’t have a home, did they ran away from their families or their families have abandoned them? My parents died when I was 10 and since then, gramps took care of me until eventually she died of heart attack. Our properties including our house were taken by the bank because gramps wasn’t able to pay the bill she used for my college. I was forced to give up my dream of becoming a successful journalist and stopped going to school. One more year and I will be graduating but I got no choice. I decided to work at Burkes’ and Rupert readily accepted my application since I am, majesty aside, beautiful and very hard working. I started my job right away as a dishwasher and when Rupert saw my potential and dedication at work, he placed me on the counter to serve wine and beer and entertain the customers. I’ve been working at Burkes’ for almost three years now and though with a not so high salary compared to a full-pledged journalist, I was able to rent a house, buy a second hand car, I could buy myself a food and I can save a little for my future. I managed to go on with my life. How can these people not do what I just did to survive? Maybe they’re just too lazy to work their asses out.
                It’s already lunch time when I finished cleaning the whole room. I still have the bathroom left to clean but I decided to get some break. I turned off the loud music playing on my cassette and opened a canned soda and gulped a large amount of it. I went outside for some fresh air and to smoke. Four apartment doors away, I saw a figure of a tall woman walking towards the staircase. The blonde woman is wearing a furry red coat and a pair of shimmering black leather boots. This woman must be a rich bitch but what is she doing in this cheap creepy apartment? Her hips were so seductive as she sways it like swan. A thought came out of my head and concluded maybe she’s visiting a friend residing in one of these four doors. “Hey!” I shouted behind her. The curly blonde woman stopped and turned her face to me. She turned around and I saw a Goddess. “You calling at me, dear?” her soft voice was so formal. “Umm..y-yeah” I stuttered. “You probably are new cos I don’t usually see you around here.” I walked hesitatingly towards her and stopped three steps away from her. “I ahhh…forgot to buy some lighter when I went to the grocery earlier today. Can I borrow yours?” Dammit! What if she’s not a smoker? I exclaimed in my mind. I showed her a pack of cigarette still unopened. She curled her lips and stepped towards me, I could see her bountiful breast barely resting inside the red coat. “Sure.” She opened her diamond studded clutch bag and showed me a lipstick. I realised it was a lighter when she ignited it. Her awesome red-painted nails are glimmering on her hands. “Thanks! Nice nails.” She smiled and walked away from me. “You’re welcome. And oh, I’m just visiting a friend here but it seemed he’s not here.” Her voice was cold and alluring. My eyes followed her until she reached a shining black car parked in front of the apartment and went inside. The engine started and disappeared like bubble. This woman is obviously rich.
                “Welcome back, Emerald!” Susie, the waitress gave me a tight hug. “I’m so glad I won’t be washing this pile of dishes alone” she said as I joined her in washing the dishes. “Our customers are growing in number these days! I bet they love my recipes, whatcha think?” said Mr. Vann, the restaurant’s cook giggled. Ludwig Vann is undeniably the best cook in town. He makes his own recipes and shares it to the people of Gloomsville. “Of course, Mr. Vann!” Susie agreed to the old chef. Mr. Vann didn’t go into culinary school to master the art of cooking. He just had a deep passion for cooking and started experimenting his own recipes since then. “How about you, Emerald? When will you pursue your dream of writing? You can be a well known novelist someday!” Alex, Vann’s assistant turned the topic to me. “Yeah you know what, Alex is right. You can’t waste all your time and talent in Rupert’s bar are you?” said Susie. They’re right. Three years of working in this pub is good but I deserved better. “Guys, admire your faith in me but writing a novel and getting it published in million copies is way harder than handing people a glass of martini” I sighed. “I guess you’re right” said Mr. Vann. “I also dreamt of becoming a professional chef and cook a nice dish for the president but look at me, my world class recipes are found in this cheap restaurant. But I’m still happy for at least I have a work!” We all agreed to Mr. Vann’s thoughts. The time moved so fast that I didn’t notice my shift was about to end. I checked the clock hanged on the wall, my ten hour shift ended so fast. The bar contained only few late comers drinking beer and the staff had already some time to rest. I took off my apron and washed my hands, reached my locker and took the cigarette. I will take some smoke before I head home, I demanded. I opened the backdoor and rested my head on the wooden wall as I puffed some smoke. It’s getting colder and colder as the winter season is fast approaching. I was enjoying the serenity of the moment when my ears caught a weak moan from behind the woods. At first I ignored it but the sound grew louder and louder. I got distracted so I focused my sense of hearing and realised it was a voice of a woman from the woods. Hesitatingly, I walked towards the woods trying not to make a sound at all. The moans grew louder as I approached a big tree where I could see two people entwined with each other. I hid myself on the shrubs and examined who these people are. The woman with a curly blonde hair is standing at the foot of the tree, her dress on the ground. Her white pinkish skin is glowing under the moonlight. The woman’s front is covered by a naked guy kissing her like a hungry lion eating its prey. I could tell that this man is oozing with hotness from the view of his back—biceps so hard and masculine, his legs are in between the woman’s legs, his butt so firm and gorgeous. The man started to thrust his own body to the woman and I could hear the woman’s loud but measured satisfied moan. The man is groaning as he penetrated his manhood through the woman’s sacred part. I held a deep breath as I was enjoying what is happening behind the bushes I am hiding. I could feel a warm liquid flowed down from in between my legs but I ignored it. I took a close look to find out who are they, from the man’s hips, I saw a dragon tattoo and from the moment I saw it, I knew this man is Brixton Ames, Rupert’s boyfriend. They changed position, this time X is resting on the tree and he carried the woman in his lap continuously thrusting from her depths of insanity. The woman has also a big red rose tattoo on her shoulders. I was watching them as they engaged to sex when I heard Susie calling me from the backyard. I hurried back to the bar and Susie asked me what I was doing in the woods. “My phone has a weak reception here. I needed to call someone and I don’t wanna be distracted by the noise coming from the bar” I lied.
                It’s already seven in the morning when I pulled my car and stopped in front of my apartment building. I noticed two police cars parked there and I wondered what happened. When I reached the third floor, two policemen are standing in front of the second door of third floor. “What happened?” I asked the police. “Do you live here, Miss?” the police asked me back. “Yes, but in the fifth door on your right.” “Do you know Mr. Comwell?” “Nope..” I answered trying to recall any ‘Mr. Comwell’ from the inside of my mind. “We found him dead inside his apartment this morning” the police answered and entered the room. I followed him inside and I saw two more police and a guy wearing glasses examining the room. Mr. Comwell is lying dead on his bed, naked. His eyes are opened and it seemed he just had sex with someone before he died. A knife was buried from his chest through his heart and blood is still coming out of it. “What do you think detective?” the other police asked the man with eyeglasses. He seemed to be the detective investigating the scene. “This man died yesterday between 10:00 to 12:00 noon during his ecstasy with a woman he was having sex with. He was murdered” he concluded…

One person dead…who killed Mr. Comwell? Find out in the next episode of Russian Roulette…soon!

-The Seductress


Friday, 3 August 2012

When White Roses Turn Red (Part II)

I dropped my prejudice and went out with him like it was just a friendly day out. It was not even a date! We watched a movie and then took a walk to Central Park. Our conversation that day became more intimate than usual; Robert confessed that he was in love with me and that he wanted to be together. For one split of a second I wanted to grab him and hug him and kiss him then tell him how I wanted him, too. How I love him so much.  Robert was a charming and funny guy. He could take away all your worries and replace it with a wide smile on your face. His face is like an angel, so innocent and kind-hearted and reserved a huge obsession to painting. He loved painting pictures of different themes. He once dreamt of having his own gallery shop where he could display all his masterpieces but he died when he was about to achieve it…  But instead I dodged his confession and talked something else. I was so nervous that I kept babbling until he reached up my hand and caressed it…he pulled me closer towards him and gave me a gentle kiss that sent sparks all throughout my veins like high voltage. I was never happier than any of my happy moments combined and I was so selfish that I forgot about Helena’s reaction if she will find out about me and Rob. I have stolen his boyfriend and I felt bad about it. I tried to reach Helena but she kept on ignoring my sms and calls. Several times I tried to talk to her at her place but she refused to even open her door. This cost me our friendship. She never talked to me since then. I just found out that she gave up her work and flew back to her home country in Austria where her parents live. I was so heartbroken…yet Robert was there for me, he was always there…
                We’ve been together for almost three years now and I wondered when he would propose to me. Together we had so many memories kept in my heart. I remember when I got caught by the blizzard and was stranded inside my stuck car on the woods where no help arrived. I was so cold my whole body was so numb that I couldn’t even move my hands to open the door of my Chevy. Robert came rushing through the cruel snow and broke the glass that separated us. I was so enormously big that time but he managed to carry me on his back and took me home; made a very salty soup but we laughed about it...then we had a great sex. I remember when I got home early from work and I saw Robert in the kitchen trying all his might to cook me a nice dinner. The chicken soup he was cooking smelled so bad and the meat was grilled excessively that it was palatable anymore. The oven with a small pie in it was filled with smoke and was about to start a fire. I also remember when I got sick with the flu that had struck the city, he took a leave from his work and took care of me in the hospital until I got better and even stayed at home for a week to look out for me even though his leave has already been due. It caused him to be terminated from his work but he never felt regrets about it but if ever did, he never showed it to me… I miss his loud cracks, his goodnight hugs and kisses. I miss his handsome face that I used to see first thing in the morning upon opening my eyes. I miss going with him to church during Sunday masses and look for someone or something to laugh about. I miss his great appetite for sex that had always satisfied me every time we do it. We had a vivid imagination of the future: getting married, a dozen of kids, a house, a business and trip to places we’ve never been before.Then we’ll grow old together, dreaming of counting each other’s grey hair. Then our kids will marry and eventually give us grandchildren. I can’t think of a happier dream than that of what we had…
                Our third anniversary came and we planned for a romantic dinner at our favourite seafood restaurant. I waited for him thereto arrive from his business trip to England to promote their business. I sat on the chair and waited for him patiently as he promised he will come. He never missed any of our anniversary celebrations so far so I sat there and made myself busy for the moment. I wanted to be the most beautiful woman among the people inside the diner when he arrives. I checked my face in the mirror, still stunningly beautiful. I can’t stop those guys who were looking at me admiring my seductive looks. My new velvet dress from Chanel added the points. The women passing at my candle-lit floral table gave me looks with different meanings. Some may have envied me but some stares never escaped my questioning eyes from being cursed by how prettier I was than them. Robert always feels proud every time we walk at a crowded street or go shopping. But sometimes I lose his patience because of the hours-long I am spending trying to buy a pair of boots or a single dress to wear at work. I consider it normal for us, women because we really need an exquisite amount of time for shopping. Robert says it is just a waste of time. Why try hard to fit the largest size of a shoe in your feet when there’s no hope of actually fitting it to you? He has a point.
                I waited for so long for his arrival. I was wishing so desperate this would be the day he propose marriage to me. I will accept it with no hesitation. For hours I waited for Robert but he never came. I didn’t notice I have already drunk the half of the champagne bottle served to me. I began to worry. What if he won’t show up? What if he found a new love during his week-long stay in England? What if he’d trash me like what he did to Helena? A lot of ‘what ifs’ were going out of my head and it made me shiver like was inside an elevator made of ice. I finally took the courage to reach my mobile phone and dialled his number but his cell was out of reach. I comforted and assured myself he would be arriving as he promised. Maybe he dropped by his gallery studio to see how it has been. It will soon open for exhibit and many of his friends and clients were dying to see his magnificent works of art. He will soon be entering the door in his black tux with three white roses on his hands. One, two, three, four hours have passed and no face of Robert came. People come and go out of the restaurant but I never saw him. I have emptied the bottle and my chest began to rumble. Something wasn’t right…My phone ringed, it was an unknown number. It was John, Robert’s co-worker on the other line delivering me the most terrifying news I’ve ever heard. I could hardly digest the words that came from John’s mouth as he retold me what happened. I ran out of the restaurant and hurried towards St. Anne’s Hospital, the ten kilometres seemed ten miles for me. I was crying thinking of Robert, this was so unexpected and very tragic. The traffic made me growl in anger, I walked out of my car and ran as fast as I could. I let out a loud scream as I saw Robert lying on the hospital bed covered with blood. His face was unrecognisable because of the heavy amount of blood that covered his face but I was sure it was him. He was wearing the brown bead bracelet I made for him a long time ago.  A part of his feet was missing and his suit was tore apart revealing his hairy chest. All I see was blood…a lot blood. I saw the white roses beside him covered with blood, some its petals had fallen on the floor and next thing happened, blackness conquered me and I fell on the floor. Robert died from a tragic accident on the day of our third anniversary…
                Police officers’ intrinsic report said he was last seen coming out of a jewelry shop holding a bouquet of white flowers wearing a sweet smile on his face. As he was trying to reach up for his car parked on the side of the road, a reckless ten-wheeler truck driven by a drunk driver came rushing through the road and accidentally, Robert and his car were crashed by the raging truck. I can’t think of any valid reason why God had made this thing happened to me and Robert. Was it because I stole Robert from my best friend Helena? Was it forbidden to be happy and stay in the arms of the one you truly love? I can’t believe how ironic and cruel my once happy and contented life turned into. Death took my beloved Robert and a part of me also died with him…
The wind was so cold and the rain never stopped, this time it rained harder raging through my veins. My long black dress now fitted so tightly on my shivering body. I opened my arms wide and stared at the black sky. Tears and the rain mixed together on my face. I looked down and from the 27th floor that I was standing, I see nothing that pure darkness. Again, I closed my eyes and let darkness swallowed me as I was falling from the building to face death with Robert still lingering in my head…

When White Roses Turn Red by Angel Gambon
 xx the end xx

Monday, 30 July 2012

When White Roses Turn Red (Part I)


When White Roses Turn Red
          I lit a cigarette as the wind came across the window giving me a slight chill on my pale body. The rain is drizzling and it makes a disturbing noise at this depth of night. I can’t sleep; the aroma of a decaf coffee invited me to grab the cup and took a sip of it. What a lonely rainy night, a storm is obviously hitting the city and the streets of Gloomsville are emptied. The people feel like prisoners of their own houses waiting impatiently for the rain to stop so they could go out and embrace a whole new day. It’s the third day of non-stop raining and I wish it wouldn’t stop. I want to lock myself in my room and rot.      
          My reflection on the mirror registers a tall woman wearing a black silky dress. It looked sexy and very seductive on her petite body not to mention the long slender leg shown on the right side slit of her dress. Her hair so untidy and light make up smudged her face making her even more seductive yet frail. I’m expecting to hear a knock from my door where Robert would just be right outside waiting for me to open and would surprise me with a bouquet of my favorite white roses and a box of pizza from his mom’s restaurant. I stared at the door for a long moment… how silly of me…he is not coming anymore…Robert is gone. Silence filled the darkroom, I still don’t have the strength to move to where I am standing and change this dress which I wore at the funeral. Tears overflowed from my eyes down to my cheeks as I stare myself in front of the mirror. Robert gave me this dress and proposed I should wear it on the day of his photo gallery’s grand opening three days from now. How ironic and heartbreaking because I wore it on the day of his funeral. I miss my Rob…so much that it hurts inside…
                I lit another stick and the smoke made me cough this time, I pushed myself outside my apartment and walked towards the veranda. My body began to freeze in the cold as the rain dripped and penetrated my whole body…staring blankly at the wide blackness in front of me, I slowly closed my eyes…
                It was mid-September and I was walking on the busy street of Hummington when my friend Helena called me up for a coffee at her place. I dropped my plan of going to the supermarket to buy some stuff and took a detour towards Bordeaux Street and not so far then I saw Helena waving at me with a stranger at her side. Helena hurried towards me and gave me a warm hug for giving in to her invitation. She’s my closest friend since high school and now that we finished college and even started having our own works, we never forget to get in touch with each other whenever time permits us. He introduced to me the guy beside her. “It’s great to finally see you!”. He offered me his hands for a handshake, tiny white set of teeth with a wholehearted smile. That was the very first time I ever laid my eyes on Robert. I gave a meaningful look at Helena as we entered her house. That day, I found out that my best friend and Robert have been dating for a couple of weeks and the latter said he wanted to meet me because he was curious about me. They were so sweet together and I felt happy for them especially for my best friend but unconsciously, I feel a tiny searing pain from my chest as I watched them together. I ignored it… Back off, Gabriella!, I told myself because obviously, I was stirring my own feelings for him on the first day we met.
                The next day, I received an e-mail from him telling me he got my e-mail address from Helena. I replied to his mail so formally that I even forgot he was a friend, too. The exchange of emails between me and Robert continued the next day and then the next. He was even on my Outlook inbox at my office work. On and on went the conversations until he finally managed to get my mobile number. We exchanged calls and text messages and every time I receive one from him, I feel like I’m at top of the world! But he is my best friend's boyfriend…anyway his messages to me are just friendly thoughts and no signs that he was into me until he called me one day and told me he was thinking maybe we should go out for some time—just the two of us! I felt guilty for Helena cos I feel like I’m stealing her guy. I dropped my prejudice and went out with him like it was just a friendly day out. It was not even a date! We watched a movie and then took a walk to Central Park. Our conversation that day became more intimate than usual; Robert confessed that he was in love with me and that he wanted us to be together. For one split of a second I wanted to grab him and hug him and kiss him then tell him how I wanted him, too. How I love him so much.  Robert was a charming and funny guy. He could take away all your worries and replace it with a wide smile on your face. His face is like of an angel, so innocent and kind-hearted and reserved a huge obsession with painting. He loved painting pictures of different themes. He once dreamed of having his own gallery shop where he could display all his masterpieces but he died when he was about to achieve it…